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Reincarnation
Posted on 2005.07.22 at 23:31
Believing in reincarnation would be comforting. I could just pick one possible direction for each lifetime and not bother with this choosing business. Paula asked me today what kind of job I want to get after I graduate, which led me down another ack-college-is-halfway-over panic session. Lately I've been saying that I'm interested in non-profit/public policy type things, but I don't quite seem committed yet. I mean, I outwardly show some signs of commitment, but the dedication/drive isn't there. I'm also worried that it's too late and that I wasted two years of college. And I'm really not making much sense now.
Stop. Breathe.
My parents want me to go on to grad school and at least get a Master's degree in something. I'm a bit worried about the costs, but I definitely do want to get a graduate degree if it's at all possible. I used to want to join the Peace Corps after college and then go to grad school, but I'm not sure if I could handle it (the unknown hygiene/veggie-friendly food conditions and the loneliness greatly worry me). If I really do want to do non-profit work, I could get a degree in Non-Profit Management (it's usually in the form of a concentration in an MBA program) and/or a certificate in fundraising/other useful general non-profit skill. However, I'm not entirely certain if I want to do development/managing type things. I think that policy making/analysis/research sounds more interesting, but that would require some actual useful knowledge. Environmental issues/sustainable development are pretty high on my list of personal causes (though I still don't really feel that passionate, which makes me feel like I'm just pretending), so I've been thinking about getting a degree in Environmental Management/Environmental Science, Policy, and Management/Public Policy with a concentration in environmental issues. However, most programs require a more sciency background and it's a bit late for me to try to get too many sciency classes in before I graduate. I did take a year of physics (decent but not spectacular grades), got to multivariable calculus in math (with just marginally acceptable grades), and basic bio at community college during high school. However, I've only taken one year of high school chem, which I'll probably have to remedy if I'm serious about going the environmental route.
It really bothers me that I'm not feeling passionate about anything.
I'm also thinking about where I'd like to go to grad school. Obviously, that choice is not entirely my decision, but just as obviously, I won't be applying to every single school that has a program that I might be interested in. I love California, especially the Bay Area, very much, but I'm wondering if maybe I ought to try living somewhere else for a change. At this point in time I don't think that I'd want to live somewhere else permanently (I don't want to live terribly far away from my family), so I guess I think of California as the home base from which I can sample other parts of the world. It might be interesting to live somewhere with snow... Hmm... Ah well. There's no use thinking too much just yet.
Stop. Breathe.
My parents want me to go on to grad school and at least get a Master's degree in something. I'm a bit worried about the costs, but I definitely do want to get a graduate degree if it's at all possible. I used to want to join the Peace Corps after college and then go to grad school, but I'm not sure if I could handle it (the unknown hygiene/veggie-friendly food conditions and the loneliness greatly worry me). If I really do want to do non-profit work, I could get a degree in Non-Profit Management (it's usually in the form of a concentration in an MBA program) and/or a certificate in fundraising/other useful general non-profit skill. However, I'm not entirely certain if I want to do development/managing type things. I think that policy making/analysis/research sounds more interesting, but that would require some actual useful knowledge. Environmental issues/sustainable development are pretty high on my list of personal causes (though I still don't really feel that passionate, which makes me feel like I'm just pretending), so I've been thinking about getting a degree in Environmental Management/Environmental Science, Policy, and Management/Public Policy with a concentration in environmental issues. However, most programs require a more sciency background and it's a bit late for me to try to get too many sciency classes in before I graduate. I did take a year of physics (decent but not spectacular grades), got to multivariable calculus in math (with just marginally acceptable grades), and basic bio at community college during high school. However, I've only taken one year of high school chem, which I'll probably have to remedy if I'm serious about going the environmental route.
It really bothers me that I'm not feeling passionate about anything.
I'm also thinking about where I'd like to go to grad school. Obviously, that choice is not entirely my decision, but just as obviously, I won't be applying to every single school that has a program that I might be interested in. I love California, especially the Bay Area, very much, but I'm wondering if maybe I ought to try living somewhere else for a change. At this point in time I don't think that I'd want to live somewhere else permanently (I don't want to live terribly far away from my family), so I guess I think of California as the home base from which I can sample other parts of the world. It might be interesting to live somewhere with snow... Hmm... Ah well. There's no use thinking too much just yet.
